A couple months ago I dumped around a 100 people off my LJ friends list. Why? I was being pissy about many things about the “online” life.
There were people on my friends list I simply just never found interest in anything they wrote about. There were people who never even bothered to participate in my journal. There were people that just annoyed the hell outta me. So really, I did house cleaning. I was tired of sifting through all the crap to find the entries I liked reading about.
Before that time, I kinda just kept quiet and didn’t do much journaling nor even read my friends list. Part of the reason was what I have explained before but this is the other part. I was like just so fucking tired of all the people who just seemed to not give a fuck. It wasn’t just LJ that got a house cleaning treatment.
Also, this had to do with transgendered issues too. Honestly, I feel that I’ve transitioned. I’m done. I’ve lived full-time for a year and a half and I’m happy and fit in just fine (normally). Physically, anything else I do is just gravy. Granted, living the life is much different then the actual physical transition but I’m just so over it.
I’ve just heard enough trans whining about this and that. I’ve heard it for years and I’m just so done with it. I know I’ve been there and done that but that doesn’t mean I have to like it now. I’ve focused on transitioning for so long, everything else didn’t matter but now, it’s no longer a focus and I’m getting on with the rest of my life.
So here’s the kicker? Everyone who says that I’ve helped them out so much or that I’ve been an inspiration to them just really, still, hits deep and makes me feel bad for doing what I did. I’ve done it in the past and always reconsidered but not this time. I’ve given so much, it’s now time to focus on me.
So, what do you do for fun?
Ooooo it just really pisses me off because it’s such a lame, generic question. Furthermore, it’s not really a short question to answer so I hate typing it out over, and over again in a chat or email or message.
I don’t really do instant messaging anymore but Myspace messages, OMG can it just stop? I am gonna put the answer to that question on my profile so that I won’t ever have to type it out and if anyone can’t read and asks me that question I can simply just reply, The answer is on my profile.
Now, how many of you are gonna be an ass and comment with that question?
I just got my renewal from 21st. For no apparent reason, my 6 month premium went up $200.00. I was like WTF and called them.
Their response:
Our company didn’t do our homework when we started issuing insurance policies in Florida a year and a half ago. So we haven’t been charging enough and taking a loss. When you buy insurance you assume a shared risk with everyone else. So because we didn’t know how much to charge in Florida and because you share the risk, you have to pay more.
I’m like WTF again! Since when do I share the risk with everyone else? I thought I was being insured, not part of a group policy or something. Not to mention, how unprofessional to even give me the excuse that we fucked up so we need to charge you more money now even though you have a perfect driving record.
I have to suck it up because they are still charging me $200 less then the next best offer I found recently.
In reference to my Mac OS vs. Vista post:
Someone told me that one of the downsides to the Mac OS is that Apple charges you for every increment of the OS ie. 10.4 to 10.5. I’m like WTF?? How many people had Windows 2000 (a.k.a. NT 5.0) and paid for an upgrade or just bought Windows XP (a.k.a NT 5.1)????
I think Windows Vista is actually NT 6.0 this time around though but still…. it’s irrelevant cause Apple could of very well just named Leopard Mac OS XI or something.
I’ve thought this before and it’s another reason I don’t write everything in my journal, if I bitch about something in my life, someone else is like “Please, you have this/that; you’re so this/that.”
If I say that I feel fat, I get blasted for being skinny. If I say I am depressed because I just broke up with my gf, I get nailed against the wall because at least I did have someone. If I can’t afford laser, it’s gotta be trumped with I can barely afford a roof over my head.
I’m tired of that kinda shit. I have sympathy for many and I care about many. Just cause I have had some luck, worked for what I have or did something in a smarter way doesn’t make me a whiner when I get upset at something someone else finds trivial compared to their own lives.
I don’t like writing for y’all. I like writing for myself and I haven’t done so in awhile because of y’all. So if you don’t like what I am writing in a particular post or in general, then don’t read it. You don’t have to and I’m fine with it. Just don’t hate me because of jealousy. I’m jealous of many but I don’t hate them just cause of it.
I think when MySpace let users change their profiles with CSS and/or HTML they created a monster of a problem with fake login pages being used on profiles or pages over writing links so they point to some fake login page on another server.
It’s amazing how many bulletins I see advertising pills and singles and profiles with login pages on them.
It really does piss me off that these people think everyone wants to buy pills off the internet.
My name is Erin. I was not always named Erin and I was not always a girl. One could argue that I am not a girl, perhaps a boy or both; maybe neither.
